Tuesday I felt so good, I went into work early and stayed late. I was pain free and my spirits were good, I didn't even take the time to stop for a walk or a lunch break. I just ate lunch at my desk. We were very busy at work. I had things I needed to do,so I never slowed down. I was feeling "normal." That was until about 6:30 when my IC body said "what are you doing??!!" I hit a wall and I hit it fast. I was so tired that night, when I tried to go to sleep, I had trouble. I had to take something for the pain and to help me sleep. The next day was even worse. I could barely function as a person. I was so tired and in so much pain. I was also feeling sorry for myself again. I sent my daughter a text and explained how lousy I felt and why. She said I should know better. Talk about role reversal. She was telling me I should know better? I thought about what she said and I knew that she was right. I did know better, I did over do it. But let me try to explain. When you have IC, you feel bad so often that sometimes you just want to feel "normal" and do all the things you used to do before you had IC. I also thought I am so blessed to have my daughter. I felt so ashamed again for being upset that I could not have more children. God knew that I would need my daughter to help me one day when I was struggling and he gave me Miranda. He has blessed me so much with her life. I am so proud of her and the young lady that she is today. She is truly my gift from God.
"Every good gift and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows" James 1:16
I wrote a poem about her life this year for her birthday. It describes her life from the beginning, to her childhood when she was so fearless to last year when her pap smear results came back with precancerous cells. God decided he would protect her and she is doing fine now. I have a copy of the poem below.
|Miranda & Flopsey|
|High School Graduation |
|Me & Miranda|
I want to dedicate this blog to my beautiful daughter. I am so thankful that God blessed me 22 years ago with her beautiful life.
By: Barbara Bennett