I am struggling. This is no doubt about it. I'm always in pain. I'm not sleeping well and I'm staying nauseated. I sleep for only for a few hours at a time. I feel like it is not enough time for my body to heal itself. I stay so nauseated that I'm not eating much. Not eating much only makes me weaker and more tired. Day after day the same cycle. No sleep, pain, nausea, weakness and pure exhaustion! Oh, did I forget to mention stress?
Thursday, after work, I came home and had a meltdown. After a long, hot bath I laid in the bed for some rest. I turned on the radio to drown out the other sounds in the house that were annoying me.
When I heard a particular song I started bawling. I can relate so much to the lyrics. I wanted to share the song with you, because I know you may be struggling too.
Later I watched a video for this song and listened to the lyrics again. I started doubting what the lyrics meant....I should know better. I thought I had learned that lyrics can have different meanings to different people. But apparently not, so my instincts were to research the meaning of the lyrics. I found a video from one of the writers of the song. As it turned out, the desire to research turned into such a blessing!
In his video, he reminded me that I am struggling for a reason. We all are struggling for a reason. It is usually not the easy and comfortable times when God is using us. He says that God is telling us, it is not our circumstances that need to change, but it is us that needs to change!!!
If you have chronic pain, burdens or struggles there is a reason. Each person has to figure out for themselves why they are going through a particular struggle or difficult times in their lives. I don't fully know why I am going through this battle. I do know that every person touches lives in ways that sometimes we don't even realize.
I am reminded of Romans 8:28 "And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose." God promises us that if we obey Him, meditate on His Word and Trust Him fully He will make our way prosperous, not matter what is going on in our life.
If you would like to watch the video, I have added a link. Let me know your thoughts below.